My Pregnancy Loss
I started bleeding suddenly one day, a lot, like a regular period. But no pain. I panicked and went to emerg, but the ultrasound showed the baby was still there and the blood test results showed my pregnancy hormone was fine. So I went home. For the next few days I kept having a dark brown discharge often. Then the cramps started. They lasted for 2 days, sometimes horrible, sometimes barely there. But no fresh blood at all. I also began to feel as though I wasnt pregnant anymore. I went to the doctors again very concerned and they took a urine test. I was told it barely tested positive.
Deciding to Get Pregnant Again
The emerg confirmed my worst fears when my blood work came back showing that my pregnancy hormone was extremely low. The baby was dead but hadnt come out yet. All I could do was wait. I believe the oxycodon they gave me for the pain helped relax my body enough to get rid of the baby, because a few hours after taking them I started to bleed and pass blood clots excessively. I had an ultrasound the next day and it showed my womb was clean. That was it, my baby was gone.
At 7.5 weeks I lost my baby and it was one of the hardest things I have ever gone through. It was my first pregnancy and they say its common but you cant help but think you did something wrong or there is something wrong with you. I am so so sorry to anyone who has to go through losing a baby. A lot of people dont understand the pain we go through and that is why I wanted to share my story... it does get easier. Its been a few weeks and I dont cry as often and we are thinking about trying again. I am so nervous. I dont want to have to go through this again. We will have a successful pregnancy one day if we believe.
Advice
- Sharing your story can be a very positive experience
- Buy some sort of memento- a necklace I bought with a little angel pendant that I keep with me as a reminder of how much I care, made me feel a lot better
- Talk about your feelings... it helps to get it out
