My Current Pregnancy
I am not currently pregnant.
My Pregnancy Loss
I have had 2 miscarriages this year. We are both 27 years old and have been together 10 years. I was told 5 years ago that I had PCOS and it would be difficult to get pregnant.. after trying for 5 years we finally got the good news in Feb this year. We were so happy! My pregnancy was normal and healthy until I fell on Easter. My baby boy was born April 30 at 16 weeks. Losing Carter was the most detrimental thing that I have ever experienced. I still cry every day. We tried to conceive again for 7 months with no luck.
Deciding to Get Pregnant Again
Then Dec 5th we found out that we were pregnant again! But the happiness quickly faded to sorrow. I miscarried again on Dec 11th at only 6 weeks... We are so let down and I especially am depressed... Our son carter was supposed to be here with us by now, but he is in heaven. I am supposed to be celebrating my pregnancy with my family this Christmas, but that was taken from me too... This is the hardest loss I have ever experienced, and I don't know anyone who has miscarried. All of my sisters and cousins have beautiful children and 3 of them are pregnant right now... I wonder constantly why me? What did I do wrong? Why do I not deserve my babies? I know my husband and I would be wonderful parents. Why is this happening to us? We know that we want to try again. But at the same time we are so terrified. What if we lose another child? Can I really handle the emotional and physical pain of another baby lost?
- I really have no advice... I'm still trying to figure out how to cope with the loss of my 2 children. But I really hope that all of you will have a healthy and happy pregnancy one day, and I pray that none of us have to go through this ever again! Haven't we all suffered enough?