My Current Pregnancy
I'm currently 34 weeks pregnant with a baby girl. I had a cerclage put it at 16 weeks and get progesterone injections. So far things are looking good. Even thought we have made it this far, I can't seem to get excited about this baby. I think when she comes out healthy and breathing it will sink it.
After 16 years of trying to get pregnant naturally and Dr's telling us we wouldn't be able to we did! We found out a couple weeks after taking home our adopted son!
My Pregnancy Loss
We did IVF 5 times and got pregnant with twins 2 times. The first pregnancy we made it to 17 weeks and 1 of my babies came out in the bathroom. Within 2 days I developed a horrible E-coli infection and went into labor with my other baby. I almost didn't make it.
Deciding to Get Pregnant Again
We decided to try again right away and got pregnant with twins! We were nervous but excited. When I hit 17 weeks again my cervix was opening so I was sent in for a emergency cerclage then put on bedrest. At 22 weeks I went in with some cramping and they said I was getting an infection again. They waited 6 days then said they can't risk my life that my babies weren't viable. So they induced me and I delivered them at 23 weeks. They left them to pass in my arms without trying to save them. They stay with us for about an hour. Our baby girls came out crying then took their last breath in my arms. After this I couldn't try again because I was so scared. The pain and suffering we went through I cannot even explain. It has been almost 6 years and I can remember every detail and feeling I had. We finally decided to try for adoption. Finally in 2010 we got a baby boy 4 days old. After having him for 6 months a family member came forward and wanted him. We were given 4 hours to say goodbye and had no say in the matter. I didn't think we'd have to go through so much pain again. In 2011 we got back on the list and were called to pick up another baby boy but this baby didn't have any family. After having him for a couple weeks we found out I was pregnant!
- From our experience nothing but time will make you feel better. Try not to let what everyone around you says about your loss. Some people just don't understand and say all the wrong things that can really hurt us. We learned this after our first loss then with the second we told people how we felt and didn't want to hear "don't worry you're young you'll get pregnant again" or "at least you didn't have them for a long time" Some people think you want to be alone and stay away or they just don't know what to say. We told them NO we want family around we don't want to be alone!