11/25/98
I know I haven't written in a long time, I thank all those that wrote to me recently to ask how things are going. So I decided it was only fair to give an update for the last 9 months, hummm an interesting number 9 months.....
I did keep my own written journal so I will just copy from it...
March 10/98
Mom found out she has cancer in her lungs. I was upset but I have to be positive I don't want all these scary negative feelings to affect the baby. I leave Monday for my last road trip alone, well not quite the little one is tagging along.
March 16/98
Well we are off to Prince Rupert the sun is shining its really beautiful. I hope the good weather follows me all month.
March 17/98
I was sad to leave my husband. didn't sleep so great but I've made it to Vanderhoof by 4 pm too. Got some food at the Co-op and my husband will be upset to know I'm eating cereal for dinner. I am very tired. I think what I miss the most is hearing his voice. I hope he is home in a few weeks, a good season to start off his new partnership.I hope this fishing season is a success. He won't be so stressed out for the rest of the year.
March 21/98
Funny how you find out who your real friends are. I thought I could come visit Sharon and things would be fun, instead its horrible. They party all the time and I can't believe she allows them to smoke around me and party to the wee hours. I mean I thought she would make sure my stay was healthy and happy. Instead she is letting that loser boyfriend run the show and I think he is doing this stuff just to get me to leave.
I'll have to wash all my clothes they smell like smoke. I am so disappointed guess I'll just head to my Dad's.
March 22/98
Raining I was suppose to have lunch with Brent in CC but he blew me off. And my bet is it had something to do with his girlfriend. He is so unhappy with her, and he has really forgotten his friends since she came along. Not sure how I feel about this, I came 3000 miles to see him.
8:30 pm B phoned can't even remember the lame excuse he gave me something about being to drunk to get up because he and T fought last night. Yeah sure whatever...
March 25/98
I felt something strange this morning, like a bubble in my tummy...could it be the baby I mean I've heard the heartbeat a few times but it still isn't that real. I just wish Hubby was here to share this with me. I don't think I have really totally accepted the fact that yes I'm going to have a baby.
March 29/98
Finally I'm at my Mom's, I was suppose to stay at S's for a few days but the house was grand central station. It very sad when you realize you and a friend have drifted so far apart that there is no reason to stay in touch. I am so disappointed in both my so called best friends but it could be hormonal. I mean I should be understanding but I came from such a long way to see them and they didn't seem to want to take time out to be with me.
I'll write more tomorrow......
